[Helping Manabu through the exercises isn't actually that conducive to horny thoughts, not when it makes Manabu nearly puke, but it still leaves him with unsettling feelings. There's intimacy in it that he's entirely unused to, even when he winds up scolding Manabu for rushing himself.
It's when they're getting ready for bed that desire, or rather, the dread thereof, returns to properly plague him. He's going about the matter as properly as possible- he's wearing a t-shirt along with pyjama pants, he's not holding onto Manabu, and he's being very quiet- but the fact remains that he is lying in bed with Manabu and it's dark and he cannot stop thinking.
What if he latches onto Manabu in his sleep? What if he starts having immodest dreams and Manabu notices? What if Manabu starts clinging to him and he gets aroused by it-
Manabu's request slices into his tension, jarring Grey momentarily out of his woes.]
...You really want me to talk to you about books more?
[Grey's mouth twitches, as he has to throttle the impulse to tease Manabu for asking for a bedtime story.]
Shall I tell you about Pride and Prejudice? It's Jane Austen's most popular novel. It's about a young woman named Elizabeth Bennet. She is one of five daughters and her father, Mr. Bennet, owns an estate called Longbourn. However, the estate is entailed and can only be passed onto a male heir...
[Talking about books is a useful distraction for Grey too, as it turns out. His nerves settle, and he almost forgets about how close Manabu is.]
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on 2024-03-25 04:42 pm (UTC)It's when they're getting ready for bed that desire, or rather, the dread thereof, returns to properly plague him. He's going about the matter as properly as possible- he's wearing a t-shirt along with pyjama pants, he's not holding onto Manabu, and he's being very quiet- but the fact remains that he is lying in bed with Manabu and it's dark and he cannot stop thinking.
What if he latches onto Manabu in his sleep? What if he starts having immodest dreams and Manabu notices? What if Manabu starts clinging to him and he gets aroused by it-
Manabu's request slices into his tension, jarring Grey momentarily out of his woes.]
...You really want me to talk to you about books more?
[Grey's mouth twitches, as he has to throttle the impulse to tease Manabu for asking for a bedtime story.]
Shall I tell you about Pride and Prejudice? It's Jane Austen's most popular novel. It's about a young woman named Elizabeth Bennet. She is one of five daughters and her father, Mr. Bennet, owns an estate called Longbourn. However, the estate is entailed and can only be passed onto a male heir...
[Talking about books is a useful distraction for Grey too, as it turns out. His nerves settle, and he almost forgets about how close Manabu is.]