[While in theory Grey knows what kissing is like, in practice he has never tried it for himself and it probably shows. The press of his lips to Manabu's certainly lacks finesse, a graceless show of affection that borders on childish.
But the rush it gives him, that thrill of yearning and pleasure at being so close to Manabu, feeling Manabu's mouth under his, is entirely real and overwhelming.
Grey doesn't want to stop. Grey wants to keep going, to kiss Manabu further and deeper and do other things that, in his affection-addled state, he can't entirely put a name to. But he doesn't have enough experience to know how to prolong this sort of thing, and he has to stop eventually just to take a breath.]
Ah- Ah...
[With the breath of air comes clarity, the realization of what he's done. I kissed Manabu.
Grey sharply stands up and stumbles back, away from Manabu and the temptation to mindlessly continue.]
...Hell!
[Grey takes another step back, regret starting to filter in properly along with a myriad of thoughts about why that was a horrible mistake. He's an SDF officer. He's a normal person. He froze up when you kissed him (did he kiss you back afterwards?) You're supposed to be protecting him. All true enough, but not helpful now that it's too late to undo what's already been done.
Grey touches his fingertips to his lips and stares down at Manabu, wondering how the hell he's going to explain this.]
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But the rush it gives him, that thrill of yearning and pleasure at being so close to Manabu, feeling Manabu's mouth under his, is entirely real and overwhelming.
Grey doesn't want to stop. Grey wants to keep going, to kiss Manabu further and deeper and do other things that, in his affection-addled state, he can't entirely put a name to. But he doesn't have enough experience to know how to prolong this sort of thing, and he has to stop eventually just to take a breath.]
Ah- Ah...
[With the breath of air comes clarity, the realization of what he's done. I kissed Manabu.
Grey sharply stands up and stumbles back, away from Manabu and the temptation to mindlessly continue.]
...Hell!
[Grey takes another step back, regret starting to filter in properly along with a myriad of thoughts about why that was a horrible mistake. He's an SDF officer. He's a normal person. He froze up when you kissed him (did he kiss you back afterwards?) You're supposed to be protecting him. All true enough, but not helpful now that it's too late to undo what's already been done.
Grey touches his fingertips to his lips and stares down at Manabu, wondering how the hell he's going to explain this.]