I don't know anything about that. [he can't just take a compliment of that sort to the face, even in the dark.
he closes his eyes.]
...Two kilometers. [he has to do it. no matter where he'll wind up beyond them, the SDF or some far-off planet, he still has to walk that far first.
Manabu tucks his head down under Grey's chin and tries to relax, though the weight of all the choices and circumstances makes it hard to feel safe to settle. why can't he have both? well, the blood...the killing, for his sake...if it was for the sake of an officer, for the sake of saving a life...he'd been down that path before in his own way, so maybe...
but he can't force a man to follow a path he doesn't want to walk. if Grey doesn't want to do it, it wouldn't be right. it'd just...hurt. a lot. letting go would hurt near as hard as losing all the others he'd loved - maybe more! there's big feelings building in him that he can't fully comprehend, so he can only intuit based on what he's gone through before. this...isn't one of those experiences. this is new.
day breaks without another nightmare preamble, and Manabu remains tangled up in Grey, hidden safely away from any light cracking through shaded windows. rest without the distress is a valuable commodity his body's going to soak up as much of that it can.]
no subject
he closes his eyes.]
...Two kilometers. [he has to do it. no matter where he'll wind up beyond them, the SDF or some far-off planet, he still has to walk that far first.
Manabu tucks his head down under Grey's chin and tries to relax, though the weight of all the choices and circumstances makes it hard to feel safe to settle. why can't he have both? well, the blood...the killing, for his sake...if it was for the sake of an officer, for the sake of saving a life...he'd been down that path before in his own way, so maybe...
but he can't force a man to follow a path he doesn't want to walk. if Grey doesn't want to do it, it wouldn't be right. it'd just...hurt. a lot. letting go would hurt near as hard as losing all the others he'd loved - maybe more! there's big feelings building in him that he can't fully comprehend, so he can only intuit based on what he's gone through before. this...isn't one of those experiences. this is new.
day breaks without another nightmare preamble, and Manabu remains tangled up in Grey, hidden safely away from any light cracking through shaded windows. rest without the distress is a valuable commodity his body's going to soak up as much of that it can.]